Ask the Shadchan


shidduchim

I am 28 years old and have been going out with a young man for a few weeks, and I am torn. He is crazy about me and is ready to get engaged. In fact, he hints at it every time we go out. I feel under tremendous pressure. I like him, and he meets a lot of qualities on my “list.” He is very smart. He is capable, honest, and hardworking. Yet, I find myself unable to say yes. I’m not sure what is holding me back. I just have a gut feeling that something is not right. Some of his behaviors bothered me, but I am not sure if they are significant or not. I enjoy his company, most of the time, more or less, but I don’t really miss him when we’re not together, and I don’t feel happy or excited about the prospect of getting engaged. If I say yes, it will be from a practical point of view. I am an “older single,” after all. By the way, I don’t think that going out longer will help me make up my mind. I see who he is. The dilemma for me is can I make a life with a good person who is offering me marriage, children, the whole deal, or should I take a chance on finding someone with whom I can share deeper feelings.

 

The Shadchan Answers:

 

You pose a very difficult question which I will try to answer with the little information that I have. 

You need to be honest with yourself about what you are feeling. Are your concerns realistic, or is this all in your head? Is there really something wrong, or are you just afraid to commit? Is this first time you are facing this dilemma in a serious dating relationship, or has it happened in the past as well? 

It is normal to fear the unknown when making life decisions. Indeed, that is what life is – facing the unknown. But if this has happened before, and/or you suspect you may be experiencing a fear of commitment, then I would recommend that you meet with a professional to help you analyze if you are just afraid of the unknown or of losing your independence.

If you are sure you are not having “commitment problems,” then I would consider the depth of your relationship with the young man you are dating. You say that he meets a lot of the qualities that you are looking for in a husband, yet something is holding you back, and you are not sure what is. While I would generally encourage someone to not reject a nice person and good candidate, I know that it is possible for someone to be “perfect” on paper yet not “click” in person. Your decision cannot be only a practical one. You should also listen to your “gut.”

Maybe a few weeks is too short a time to really know someone. Although he is ready to “pop the question,” you are not. I do not agree with your statement that going out longer would not help. Therefore, my primary suggestion to you is to continue going out and getting to know each other. Maybe you will discover what is bothering you or, alternatively, come to accept these behaviors and regard them as a minor concern. Perhaps you will share “deeper feelings” and gain a better understanding of how you feel about him.

As you continue to see each other, push yourself to look for the good in him. Ask yourself each time you go out, what are two things that I enjoy about his personality? Many people tend to look for faults and concentrate on the negative. Of course, I would never advise you to marry someone you don’t like, but give yourself a chance to like him. You will also have more time to observe how he treats you (and others) in different situations.

Another thing: I feel that, before a couple makes a final commitment, they should be able to discuss anything and everything without worrying about what the other person will say. Are you able to share feelings with each other? Does he know how you feel about your relationship? How well are you able to discuss mutual concerns? Have you gone deep into discussions about the future and what you would like as far as children, schooling, and hashkafos about life? These kinds of conversations are critical for a dating relationship to move forward, especially for singles who are a little “older.”

Obviously, when you have such discussions, they must be done with care and empathy for the other person’s feelings. If you do not trust him enough to have these conversations, or if you continue to have significant negative feelings about him, then I question whether you are as invested in this relationship as he is. Especially in our circles, I find that the older a couple is, the longer it takes to make decisions and connections in this area. You should not feel pressured to conform to an expected “shidduch timeline.” You should feel comfortable to take as much time as you need to allow your relationship with this young man to develop. If he respects you and really wants to marry you, he should be enough of a mensch to give you this time. However, if he continues to pressure you and is not sensitive to your concerns, then you have your answer.

To conclude, I do not advise you to drop the shidduch in the hopes that you will find someone else, because you never know what the next person will be like. I’m sure I don’t have to remind you that quality guys don’t come up too often, and it only gets harder the older one gets.

If, after trying these suggestions, you find that you continue to have doubts and cannot “make up your mind,” then it is unfair for you to string him along. If you are really leaning towards ending this relationship, I would recommend that you to speak to a rav, professional, or trusted mentor before you make that final decision. This young man sounds like a very fine person, and it seems to me like your fears are normal concerns that daters often face. But you are the final judge.

I hope I have given you some positive feedback and that you will go to the chuppa very soon. I wish you much hatzlacha in whatever you decide.

 

comments powered by Disqus