The DMC A Column for Teens (of all Ages) :A Summer To Remember


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There’s nothing like a Goldberg and Goldstein who are best friends. You know the type? Friends since the nursery at the hospital. With the same birthdays, living on the same block – can you even imagine us not getting mixed up? I mean, come on. Basi Goldberg and Batsheva Goldstein both living on Glengyle and in seventh grade.

Batsheva and I decided that this would be the best summer of our lives. As best friends, I’m sure you can imagine we have had our fair share of fun times and great summers. Like last year, when we decided to make a camp. Did you know that choosing a name for your camp is almost as important as the counselors that you hire? The two of us hacked the system and figured out the method to the madness. You ready? Nursery through second-grade age: Camp names must include a food. Camp Sprinkles, Camp Ice-Pop, Camp Mac’n Cheese, Camp Cupcake. We stayed up late wondering why there are no boy staples in the mix, like Camp Deli-Roll or Camp Kishke or Camp Cholent – but I digress!

Elementary-aged camps all include adjectives. Right after Rosh Hashanah, camp flyers fly home with names such as Camp Leibedig, Camp Geshmak, Camp Shpitzy, Camp Shtaty, and Camp Kef! Camps pop up left and right, honing in on all different types of people, It’s not like the olden days when the only three options were Camp Shalom, Camp Bais Yaakov, and TA camp. No, No. Now there is even Camp Covid, where three years post-covid campers are still enjoying wearing double masks and standing six feet apart while playing tag!

Batsheva and I think some of the more appropriate camp names would be Camp Balei Gan or Camp Tzefloygen. We understood why naming our camp, Camp A’la Maalos would be the best option. And so, Camp A’la Maalos sprung into action. There was fun, games, davening, parsha, and lots and lots and lots of ice pops.

This year, the two of us decided to go to sleepaway camp together for the first time. It took our parents some time to get used to the idea of both their oldest girls leaving for three weeks. As you can imagine, not having the in-house babysitter, sous chef, pastry chef, cleaning girl, and family mascot home can take a toll on a family. But eventually, our parents came around to it. The group bus was leaving from the Metro…I mean Shoppers…I mean Safeway parking lot at 2 p.m. on Tuesday, and we just couldn’t wait! The night before the bus left, the two of us went over our camp lists for the 287th time. It was practically set in stone that this was going to be the most epic summer ever.

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It’s three weeks later. This was the most epic, amazing, incredible summer ever, so why do I feel so unbelievably sad?

The bus pulled into the Safeway parking lot at 10 p.m., and I barely managed to open my crusty tired eyes as I walked out to greet my parents, who were picking up both Batsheva and me. My brothers grabbed my camp duffels off the bottom of the bus as my sister went to find Batsheva, and silence painted the solemn tone in our Honda Odyssey as we drove the 12 minutes home. Only three weeks earlier, the two of us had been giggling in the back row on our way to the same parking lot with Mrs. Goldstein at the wheel. Matching crisp white Adidas sneakers donned our feet as we exchanged snacks and listened to each other’s MP3 players. Only three weeks later and we were practically strangers.

How did this happen? It’s not like I intended it to.

The ride had been long and winding, but we finally made it up to the Pocono Mountains to Camp Machane Shir. The two of us were placed in different bunks immediately, which threw us off completely. How could my best friend be put in a different bunk? It didn’t even seem legal. Basi Goldberg and Batsheva Goldstein just had to be together, but apparently, we didn’t. Because no matter how much begging, pleading, and coaxing each of us did, the head counselors would not change our circumstances.

I loved my bunk right away, although I missed Batsheva terribly. We found each other at lunch, shiur, and swimming for the first few days, but it got to the point where I had made some more really good friends I wanted to chill out with. Batsheva, on the other hand, always looked miserable. I caught sight of her sitting alone through the window of her bunkroom, listening to music on her bed instead of coming to night activity on the second night. For a moment, I hesitated, debating whether to go in and sit with her so she would not feel so alone. On that gorgeous breezy night, under the blanket of stars, I was about to go have fun while my best friend retreated under her actual blanket. Lifting my hand to knock on the bunkhouse door, I suddenly felt Leba and Rachel, laughing from behind, grab my arm and practically lift me off my two feet carrying me to night festivities. We had night races, a popcorn party, and a dance off – and by the time my head hit the pillow that night, memories of Batsheva sitting alone in her bunkroom were gone.

I’m not gonna lie, after about a week, I was in a new groove and settled. Batsheva on the other hand, never seemed to get used to the circumstances. I’d see her on the sidelines during sports, eating alone during lunch, reading under a tree instead of swimming – and now that I think about it, I rarely caught a glimpse of her at night activity. The weirdest part of it all was her response to my many attempts to include her.

“No,” she’d say, “You made new friends. Go without me” or “I’d rather be by myself.” Other times, when I motioned with my hands for her to come sit with us, she’d roll her eyes, scrunch her nose, and do that thing with her mouth that she always does when something grosses her out.

And so “go without her” I did. I threw everything I had into making this the best camp experience ever, while my bestie sat under the proverbial cloud of doom and gloom. Now, three weeks later, we are thrown back into the reality of our past life, but nothing is the same. I’ve grown, thanks to the yellow camp potato mush, pickle chips, and soursticks. I’d gained a few pounds but lost a great friend. Try as I might, there was nothing I could do to ease the pain Batsheva had gone through these past three weeks, watching me have fun while she remained stuck in the mud.

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Two weeks went by post-camp, and I hadn’t heard a word from Batsheva. I spent most days catching up on summer homework, calling friends from camp, and working at a 9:00 to 2:00 counselor job. Then one day, as I walked past the overgrown hedges on both sides of my home walkway, I saw a note sticking out of the mailbox, and this is what it said:

Dear Basi,

I don’t have the guts to call and tell this all to you in person, so I figured a letter would do. You really make me feel horrible. How dare you? Being in the same camp as you was a disaster. Did you really think you could ghost me like you did without consequences? Do you really think making new friends and pretending I did not exist was a long-term good idea? Have you even thought of the repercussions? No, you didn’t. Clearly. Well, now you’re probably sitting home alone wanting to hang out, but trust me, our friendship has sunk, officially. See you in 8th grade, or not.

Batsheva

I read and re-read the letter, analyzing every painful word. How could I be so horrible? I was a terrible person. No. I was worse than that. I mean, I know I tried hard to include her whenever I could, but maybe I did not try hard enough?

The pit in my stomach would not go away. Ignoring it was not an option; I so badly wanted to defend myself. I wrote a response letter to Batsheva about 1,000 times in my head but could not bear the thought of putting my thoughts to pen and sealing it. I thought about it during the day and dreamed about it during the night. Conversations and responses rang in my head from morning until night, having nobody to say it to. Until one morning my mother caught me by surprise. She said she had noticed how off things have been, and she wanted to talk over ice cream. So, we went to Cocoachinos, got milkshakes, and I told her everything. I told her how I tried so hard to include Batsheva but was pushed away. I told her how badly I wanted to make the most of my summer, and making new friends was part of the equation. I told her how I could not understand how something completely out of my control was now being turned around and blamed on me. I told her about the letter. Well, you know what she said?

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Funnily enough, it all went back to where it all started: Safeway.

My mother explained how, before Safeway was Safeway, it was Shoppers. Before Shoppers was Shoppers, it was Metro. Before Metro was Metro, it was Farm Fresh. Before Farm Fresh was Farm Fresh, there was Pantry Pride and Food Fair. The store has traded grocery store chains over the past decade more times than my mom could count, and since she was a kid growing up here in Baltimore, it had even more names than she could remember. News flashes would ring that the Smith Avenue grocery store was now a new one! ! New name but the same place, next to the most overpriced gas station in Pikesville. It always had the same layout: the same floral section to the right when you walk in, and produce beside that, followed by the rows of kosher refrigerated items and the $2.99 grapejuice on sale during the Pesach mad rush.

“It’s the same, but it’s not anymore,” my mother explained. “The same goes with friends. They are the same people we knew and loved, enjoyed every minute with, and those memories can always be cherished. But we move on, and we change. We grow into different versions of ourselves, and circumstances show sides to our friends that we may never have been able to see before.

“You may have loved the customer service at Shoppers and hate it at Safeway. This is confusing because it is really the same store. You must realize that it does not mean the experience at Shoppers did not exist; it merely means it existed while it lasted, and now it is under new management. You must look at Batsheva as if she is now under new management, and the friendship just does not serve you and is not healthy for you anymore, based on your experiences. The good news is, you have lots of new friends and a chance, in eighth grade, to spread your wings to include others into your life.”

It was cool, the analogy. Hard to accept, but true. I would get over this. As we slurped the last drops of our milkshakes, I smiled, and then my mom said, “Hey, why don’t we stop at Safeway before we head home. I think we need some more ice cream, don’t you think?”

And with that, we left.

 

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