The Ride of my Life


?I like the American holiday of Thanksgiving which was just celebrated. Unfortunately, these days, instead of giving thanks to G-d and showing gratitude to others, many Americans think that Thanksgiving is simply a time to shop for bargains.

Giving thanks and showing appreciation are core Jewish values. The Modim prayer of thanksgiving is recited daily in our Shmoneh Esrei/Amidah. As Chanukah approaches, we Jews are reminded to be thankful for the miracles that Hashem performed for our ancestors. Our survival then, as now, has always relied upon miracles. In recent times, though, both of these holidays have become more about getting than giving. It seems that we need to be reminded to give with an open hand, to appreciate, and to be thankful, because our spiritual health and wellbeing require it.

Most of us are bombarded with memes, videos, and commentaries, coming in from lots of different sources. I seldom open unsolicited content, but when the source is a family member, friend, or colleague, I’ll usually take the time to have a look. Recently, a colleague of mine, from London, Rabbi Dr. Jonathan Dove, sent me a lovely, thought-provoking, short animated video that reminded me to be thankful and grateful for the many blessings which G-d has bestowed upon me. The simple but attractive video opens with a vintage train departing from a small country station. The background features rolling hills and pastures. As the train chugs along the track, brief captions appear in text above the horizon. Please read the following phrases as they appeared in the video just above the vintage train.
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·         At birth, we board the train and meet our parents, and we believe they will always travel by our side.

·         As time goes by, other people will board the train, and they will be significant – such as our siblings, friends, children, and the love of our life.

·         However, at some station, our parents will step off the train, leaving us forever.

·         Others will step off over time, and leave a permanent vacuum.

·         Some, however, will go unnoticed as they vacate their seats.

·         This train ride will be filled with joy, sorrow, fantasy, expectations, hellos, goodbyes, and farewells.

·         A successful journey consists of having a good relationship with all passengers, requiring that we give the best of ourselves.

·         The mystery is: We do not know at which station we, ourselves, will disembark.

·         So, we must live in the best way: love, forgive, and offer the best of who we are.

·         When the time comes for us to step down and leave our seat empty, we should leave behind beautiful memories for those who will continue to travel on the train of life.

·         Who has been the most important person with you on the train?

·         No matter their role, remember to be thankful to those who accompanied you on your journey.

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Although the What Where When doesn’t offer a video viewing option, I wanted to share the video captions because when I read those simple phrases, I paused and thought about my personal journey and the fact that I have been very blessed to ride the train for quite a while. The video caused me to stop and think about my parents, who stepped off the train a while ago, and about my wife, my family, my mentors, and my friends. It made me think about my train ride, and some of the sights, scenes, and experiences I’ve had along the way.

I thought about my mom and dad, who both grew up during the Great Depression; actually, my dad was a teenager. They both remembered times when food was scarce and dinner was bread and potatoes, for which they were grateful. They remembered having one heat source in their spartan homes – a wood-fired kitchen stove – and how on very cold nights it was better to sleep on the kitchen floor than in a freezing bedroom.

 New clothes were rare, and hand-me-downs were the norm. One pair of shoes had to last until they became unwearable. Sharing with, and caring for others was the expected norm. Sharing your bedroom with siblings – and guests – was natural. One indoor shared bathroom was considered a luxury, especially when compared to a freezing outhouse. Their parents (my grandparents) didn’t assign chores; everyone knew to pitch in. Saying “please” and “thank you” and showing appreciation was reflexive. No matter how little they had, they knew that others had less; therefore charity was understood.

When I was a child, most stores had “layaway” plans. Essentially, if you saw something you wanted but didn’t have enough saved up to buy it, the shop owner would put the item aside for you, and you would come by to make regular payments until you had enough money to take possession of the item. Those were the days before credit cards! I clearly recall holding my grandma’s hand (my mom’s mom) and walking with her to a clothing shop on East Monument Street, where she had a “layaway” sweater with a fur collar. I can still see Grandma trying on that sweater, standing in front of a mirror and admiring herself wearing it. I was with her when the big day came, and we entered the store to take possession of her long-awaited sweater. She said to the saleslady, “May I please get that boxed and gift wrapped?” Although I was only five years old, I knew that you didn’t gift wrap something you bought for yourself. I said, “Grandma, why are you gift wrapping your new sweater?” She looked at me and said, “I’m going to give this to my sister Sarah. It will look nice on her, and she needs it more than I do.” I learned a lot that day. Years later, I was with my mom when she did almost the same thing. The day came when she had the final payment for a jacket that she had put on layaway. We entered the store, and my mom apologized to the owner and asked if, instead of the jacket, she could get a store credit to give to her sister for her birthday.
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There are certain things from my train ride that I remember well – like the time on a hot summer day when I was in a steamy car with my dad. Although I was only seven, I could read fairly well. We passed a billboard that said, “Meadowbrook Swimming Pool – Have fun and cool off here.” I said, “Dad, it’s so hot; can we go there?” Without flinching, my dad said, “They don’t allow Jews there. We go to Carlin’s Park.” I remember saying, “But Dad, how will they know that we’re Jews?” My dad said, “We don’t go where we’re not wanted and respected.” And that was that!

It’s interesting how Jewish immigrants to America succeeded and integrated into the general society as best they could. Our government never made Yiddish an official language. We never were considered a disadvantaged minority entitled to any handouts, notwithstanding the fact that many Jews arrived as penniless immigrants escaping harsh persecution. Upon arriving in America, Jews faced hostility and open discrimination. Maybe, because of discrimination and no expectation of receiving any government assistance, we Jews succeeded in America beyond logical expectations.

When my late father-in-law, a 19-year-old honors graduate of Yale, was told that the medical school Jewish quota was filled, he decided to go to law school. Why? Because he decided that being able to have a profession and earn a living was his number one priority. When my late uncle faced the same situation, he took a detour and became a pharmacist and eventually found his way into University of Maryland Medical School.

My uncle’s parents and my father-in-law’s parents were all Yiddish-speaking immigrants escaping tyranny and hoping for a better life. From their first day in America, they found jobs, sometimes unpleasant and grueling ones. For my parents’ parents, as long as the Cossacks were not hunting them down, America was great! When hospitals didn’t want to grant internships to Jewish medical grads, the Jews built some of the best hospitals in America – hospitals that currently serve many “underprivileged” patients being supported by the government.

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As I reminisce about my train ride, I am so grateful to the wonderful friends, teachers, and role models I’ve met on my journey. I am especially grateful to my incredible wife Arleeta for being a true aishes chayil, aizer k’negdo, and outstanding mother. Our “shadchan” was NCSY, and I’m so privileged to have ridden the train with Rabbi Pinchas Stolper, zt”l, NCSY’s founder and my former boss. I’m thankful for all those who were on my train for strongly influencing me. As each of these mentors stepped off the train, no one came on to fill their seats. Although there is a famous statement, “no one is irreplaceable,” I have come to understand that there are people who are uniquely irreplaceable. My train ride has crisscrossed the United States and the Atlantic and Pacific Oceans. I do not take for granted that, when Arleeta agreed to board my train, she was okay to not know the route or the destination. Of course, neither did I!
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Just over 47 years ago, Arleeta agreed to take a leap of faith with me and move to California with our five children ranging in age from eight to two-year-old twins. At the time, we had barely $2,000, no guarantee of a job, and no specific place to move into. Some might say it was insane – actually, some did! Nevertheless, with youthful confidence and emunah, we took a road trip in our nine-passenger Chevy wagon towing a U-Haul, and set out for Los Angeles.

Important note: In the mid- to late-70s, California was a splendid place to live. Ronald Reagan had been the two-term governor. Neither Disneyland nor any of the amusement parks were woke – in fact, they were places that reinforced solid family values – which made raising a family with moral values easier. Of course, there were pockets of “insanity” and immorality – but those people were a small minority. Back then, California hospitalized the insane; nowadays, many are elected officials. Back then, criminals were apprehended and arrested; nowadays, they clean out Walgreens. So, for the most part, California was just a lovely place to live.

After an 11-day road trip, which had a few exciting moments, we arrived at an unmarried friend’s apartment in LA. Our friend was kind enough to temporarily move out to give our family a place to stay. Within 10 days, we moved into a small rented house in Long Beach, one mile from the Chabad shul, our kids were enrolled in Camp Gan Israel, and shortly thereafter, I was asked to become the principal of the fledgling Hebrew Academy of Orange County. We became part of a young growing community, and our kids had lots of friends.

I fondly recall our first California December with no freezing weather and average daytime temperatures around 70° F. It was, for us, absolutely fantastic. No overcoats, earmuffs, gloves, or boots. Arleeta would take the twins to the beach to play in the sand, which was free, enjoyable, and entertaining. When we heard of snow and ice storms “back East,” it reinforced for us that we had made a good decision. The beautiful train video brought back a flow of memories from our cross-country adventure and the Divine assistance that we received on our trip.

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Early one lovely Friday morning in July, we left Amarillo, Texas, headed for Albuquerque New Mexico for Shabbos. As we traversed the Southern Rocky Mountains, our old Chevy struggled to make the 7,600 foot climb. Our roof rack was overloaded as was our U-Haul trailer. At 6,500 feet, our exhausted and overheated car would go no further. I carefully drifted onto the shoulder. Those were the days before cell phones, but they were also the days when it was natural for people to stop and help others. The first person to stop was a real cowboy – boots, hat, vest, and a big pick-up truck. He said, “You’re in a national forest; I’ll get one of the rangers to tow you off the mountain.” And less than 30 minutes later, a monster tow truck with lights flashing appeared.

The ranger looked exactly as I had pictured him: tall, sturdy, badge on his cowboy-style snap shirt pocket, Western gun belt, cowboy boots, and a ten-gallon hat. He said, “Welcome to mountain country – you’re my fifth tow of the day. You East Coast city folks don’t realize that you could never get to the summit in this city car with that load. I’ll take you up to the summit, and then we’ll see how badly you damaged you car.” Now imagine this today. The ranger (who was a police officer) said, “Because there’s seven of you, I can’t fit you all in my truck, and seeing that we’ve got a distance to go, you all just stay in your seats until we get to the summit.”

We sat in our car being towed by a policeman on a curvy mountain road! For the kids, it was quite exciting. A half-hour later, we were at the summit at ranger headquarters. From there it was a steep descent towards Albuquerque. The rangers were so accommodating. One of them checked out our car and said, “You are one fortunate family. You could have burned out the transmission, but somehow, it seems okay. Just be careful on your descent because the second most popular thing Eastern City folk do is burn out their brakes on the way down. Occasionally those brakes catch fire. (Those were the days of old-fashioned brake pads and brake shoes.) So, put your car in low gear, only pump the brakes occasionally – and because that trailer is pushing you – pull off every time you see a sign saying “Truck Escape.” Let your brakes cool off and then proceed.” I was so grateful! We thanked the rangers, and I asked about paying for their efforts. The ranger who towed us said, “This is part of our job, just like the Coast Guard is there for water rescues, we’re here to do mountain rescues.”

Fortunately, even though we lost a couple of hours on the mountain, it was summer, so our time till Shabbos was okay. In planning our trip, using printed maps and AAA “triptiks.” (Israel hadn’t yet invented Waze or Google GPS.) I optimistically booked hotels along the way, requesting interconnecting rooms. Sometimes we had two cribs in our room; sometimes we put all five kids in the other room. Our needs in those days were pretty simple. We lived off of kosher products that could be found in any big supermarket: lots of fruit, vegetables, cereal, cottage cheese, and tuna. For Shabbos, we assumed we would eat very basic food with some baked beans, corn, and maybe string beans added, along with matza, and, of course, grape juice. We knew that a long summer Shabbos in two rooms would be a challenge, so we made sure that the hotel we reserved in Albuquerque had a playground.

As we drove into town towards our hotel, I didn’t see any large food market chain stores. Hoping for the best, we pulled into Silver Spurs Market. We all went in together. Doniel and Ari were wearing baseball caps and T-shirts with their tzitzis hanging out. As Arleeta and I were hunting for hashgachas, a man in a cowboy hat came over and said, “Shalom aleichem, I’m the owner/manager. I haven’t seen tzitzis, other than mine, in here before.” The manager (I wish I could remember his name) said that he was from Brooklyn and had moved to New Mexico for health reasons. He asked us what we were doing there, and we explained. He then said, “Follow me.” He took us to a walk-in freezer in the back of the market and said, “Take what you need.” The freezer was filled with kosher products that he kept for himself and his family. Back then, Chabad hadn’t yet arrived in Albuquerque. We didn’t want to be greedy, but he was well stocked, so we took what we needed for a special Shabbos! We also bought lots of ice for our ice chest hoping that we could retard spoilage. The man insisted that we only pay him his cost. We bought lots of foil (for double wrapping if we located a cooking source) as well as some nice quality paper and plastic goods (we had been using very inexpensive stuff) and headed to the hotel. Upon arrival we were glad to see that the hotel was located on a sprawling hillside (not just a roadside building). There were picnic areas, playgrounds, and kiddie pools.

At the check-in office, the desk clerk said, “I have your rooms, but unfortunately they don’t connect!”

I said, “I need interconnecting rooms; we have little kids.” The kindly clerk thought for a minute and said, “Ya know, my manager is away for the weekend. How about if I give you his cabin! It’s clean, and occasionally, if we need to, we rent it out.” I said, “That’s fantastic.” By then, it was two-and-a-half hours till Shabbos. We pulled up to the cabin. It had a living room, dining room, and full kitchen with a big fridge and a gas range and oven. It had a fenced-in patio with a picnic table, lounge chairs, and a fenced in pool. We had everything we needed for a wonderful erev Shabbos, Shabbos, and motza’ei Shabbos. Talk about G-d watching over “fools and children”! Hashem was clearly looking out for us, His children.

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I hadn’t actually thought much about how our California adventure was just the beginning of many special adventures and opportunities that would take us from the West Coast of the U.S. to Sydney, Australia, and onward to Cape Town, South Africa. Actually, I hadn’t thought about our 3,000-mile family road trip for decades until viewing the train video, which caused a cascade of memories.

Two special events (besides Shabbos) stand out. The first started with our youngest twin, Michoel, being overtired as we were headed from Indiana to Missouri. Michoel was a pretty easy kid, but he needed his sleep. As we rolled into Illinois, he started a screaming mantra – “I want to go upstairs to my bed” – which went on and on. After an hour, Doniel, who was eight, climbed over the seat and yelled over his brother’s screaming, “We’re in a car; there’s no upstairs and no bed. Knock it off.” When that didn’t work, Doniel said, “I have a great idea – give the kid a few sandwiches and leave him on the side of the road. Someone will find him.” Arleeta, noting the look on my face, said, “No, we’re not doing that!” She always made sure to keep things under control. By the way, because we didn’t leave Michoel on the roadside, he’s now, b”H, living with his wife Tamar and their children and grandchildren in Eretz Yisrael, where he is a rosh mesifta. Ya never know! Oh, and his bed is on the first floor, not upstairs, in their home in Kiryat Sefer.

The other special event happened in Flagstaff, Arizona. After our wonderful Albuquerque Shabbos, we stayed a bit longer on Sunday morning enjoying the private pool and finishing off delicious leftovers. We then headed to Flagstaff. We arrived later than expected, just before sunset at around 8:00 p.m. We checked into the Best Western Motel and were given our room keys. After our luxurious Shabbos cabin, the Best Western was, to say the least, a letdown. The rooms were grungy and had shag carpet (yes, shag carpet in a hotel – feh). There it was, right in my line of vision as I entered the not fresh smelling room. A huge toenail was perched on the carpet! I turned around and said, “Arleeta there’s no way. We’re not staying in this dump.”

Arleeta replied, “Look, the kids are tired. It’s only one night; let’s make the best of it.”

I said, “No, I will have nightmares about being attacked by a toenail. We’ll find another place to stay.” Now, here’s where my thinking was a bit off. I still possessed my Eastern Seaboard mentality, thinking that if you don’t find a hotel in Elkton, Maryland, you’ll find one in Wilmington, Delaware. Or if you don’t find one at Exit 2 of the NJ turnpike, you’ll find one at the next exit. So, I confidently reloaded the car – thank G-d I got gas – and we stopped at a few other hotels in Flagstaff, but everything was booked. I confidently said, “No problem, we’ll find a hotel in the next town.” Well, guess what?! There was no next town! Just desert, and more desert. Miles of deserted, desolate desert with signs warning of rattle snakes and Gila monsters. (Look them up; they are lovely poisonous lizards with a low threshold for humor.)

At about 11:00 p.m., four of the kids were asleep, but Michoel (the screamer) had just woken up. Before he disturbed anyone, Arleeta did a “Batya.” Somehow, she managed to extend her arm like a telescope and grab Michoel from the seat behind us and put him on her lap. He put his head on her shoulder and went back to sleep. As we continued driving on the very dark, deserted highway I was becoming more and more concerned but tried not to show it. I said, “Wow, have you ever seen so many stars?” – to which Arleeta replied, “My entire side is numb from holding Michoel. If I dare move an inch, he’ll wake up and wake everyone else up; just find a place. I don’t care if it has toenails and fingernails in the carpet; just find a place!”

Being perceptive, I realized that my wife didn’t seem too pleased with the situation. Finally, at 4:15 a.m., I saw what appeared to be a neon sign in the distance. I prayed, please let it be a hotel, and let them have two rooms…please!” As we got closer I saw the sign, “Holiday Inn Kingman – Last Hotel before California.” As I pulled in, the first rays of light were starting to break over the horizon. Arleeta stayed in the car, with Michoel still on her lap, as I went in! Never had I been so grateful. They had two interconnecting rooms and two cribs in the storage room. Eureka!! I came out to the car holding the keys. Arleeta, holding out her right hand, said, “Key – hand me a key!” Then she handed me Michoel and said, “All yours,” and stumbled to the room, opened the door and passed out on the bed. Out cold!

At that moment everyone, including Michoel, was waking up from their night’s sleep as the sun was breaking over the horizon. I hadn’t yet unloaded the car when someone said, “Hey look, a playground.” Everyone piled out of the car and ran to the swings, sliding board, and jungle gym. It was 4:45 a.m. The temperature was already 85° F., and the kids were ready for action. So, I figured this was a good time for Shacharis. I had split kavanah as I davened and kept an eye on the kids. Half- an-hour later, our daughter D’vorah said, “Look, a kids pool.” I decided at that point to make life simple. I said, “Take off your shoes and just jump in.”

For a millisecond, everyone hesitated, then splash, splash, splash. Although it was a kiddie pool, I had to keep a careful eye on everyone, especially Ezra and Michoel, who were the youngest! At about 7:00 a.m., I took stuff out of the ice chest and the food box and gave everyone some breakfast. Although their clothes were wet, it was now 95° F. (and less than 10% humidity). By noon, the kids were exhausted. I introduced them to their beds. Their clothes had already dried, and the two cribs were set up. They all conked out. I unloaded the car and passed out next to Arleeta, who was still wearing her dress and was sound asleep. In fact, everyone except me was asleep in their clothes. By 4:00 p.m., everyone was ready for a new day of exploration and excitement.

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Leaving our cross-country road trip, I’ll finish off with a memory from our next “train stop,” Sydney, Australia.

After spending more than a decade in Southern California, we were presented with an opportunity to move to Sydney. Doniel and D’vorah were already learning in Israel, Ari was entering tenth grade, and the twins were just beginning secondary school. The chance to run an educational counseling center and to work with day schools in Australia and New Zealand was too interesting and exciting to pass up. Unlike our move to California, this one was really far. Once again, I was incredibly grateful that Arleeta was up for another adventure.

Sydney is quite a large city. The core of the frum community is located in an area called the Eastern Suburbs, which incorporates Bondi, Dover Heights, and Belleview Hill. When we were deciding on a place to live, someone suggested a small, recently established Jewish community in St. Ives on the North Shore. There was a community day school there with a proper minyan that met on the school’s campus. We also learned that Chabad was planning to open a North Shore branch.

It’s interesting that the main Chabad center in Bondi was run by Rabbi Pinchus Feldman, the son of my 11th grade TA rebbe, Rabbi Mendel Feldman, zt”l, who was the Rav of Baltimore’s Glen Avenue Shul. Rav Mendel subsequently became a rabbinic mentor of mine. Rabbi Pinchus Feldman’s oldest daughter Fruma was destined to marry Rabbi Nachum Schapiro and establish Chabad on the North Shore. Fruma’s sister Nechama would eventually marry Rabbi Levi Shemtov. They would move soon after to Washington D.C. and become the Chabad Capitol Hill power couple. I knew Levi when he was a bachur. Even then it was clear that he was destined to accomplish great things.

Notwithstanding the 45-minute commute to my office and the twins’ yeshiva, we decided to move to St. Ives, where the scenery was beautiful and the community was young and growing. In a way it was similar to our previous experience, years earlier, when we chose Long Beach over Los Angeles. At the time, you could get twice the house for half the price on the North Shore. Our St. Ives home, on the edge of the Ku-ring-gai National Park, had a beautiful veranda. Stunning wild (but amazingly friendly) parrots, rainbow parakeets, spectacular Lorikeets, bright red rosellas, and giant cockatoos would land on our back deck seeking fruit and berries, which they would eat out of our hands. Wallabies and kangaroos would emerge from the forest from time to time. The downside was that the dinner-plate-sized Huntsman spiders, the world’s biggest spiders, together with funnel-web spiders, the world’s deadliest, also showed up from time to time. We learned not to reach into our mailbox without first looking and to be very careful around nooks and crannies where funnel-webs hide. Oh, then there were the blue tongue lizards that liked to hang out in our neighborhood. These fearsome looking two-foot creatures are relatively harmless to humans, notwithstanding the hissing sound emanating from their snake-like heads. Speaking of snakes, we were introduced to another lovely creature native to our area, the death adder. As its name implies, it is the world’s deadliest snake. We didn’t know these little details before moving to the North Shore. It was then that I understood why the overwhelming majority of Jews chose to live in the overdeveloped Eastern Suburbs.

On the day that we were moving into our St. Ives home, Ari, Ezra, and Michoel pulled out a baseball bat and ball and a few baseball gloves and walked across the street to the small park opposite our house. There was a seven-year-old boy observing them from a distance. The little boy raced home to his mother and exclaimed, “There are boys in the park wearing kippahs, and they are wearing a tallis under their shirts, and they are playing a game that is sort of like cricket but the ball and bat are weird.”

It’s important to understand that most of the Jews on the North Shore were not observant and very limited in their knowledge of Judaism. The boy’s mom ran out to see what her son observed. The lady, Zara Gordon, and her son Dan were at our front door five minutes later to introduce themselves and welcome us. Later, Zara brought her husband Hedley and their 11-year-old daughter Kezi to meet the “Americans.” That was the beginning of many Shabbosim that the Gordons spent in our home. Dan idolized Ezra and Michoel, and when D’vorah came home during Nissan, Kezi bonded with her.

Thirty-six years have passed. Kezi has for many years been a popular rebbetzin in the London suburb of Brondesbury Park, married to an outstanding rav, Rabbi Boruch Levin. They have a large congregation and a large family. Dan went on to yeshiva, became a talmid chacham, then went to medical school and is now an outstanding otolaryngologist and surgeon residing with his family in the very frum suburb of Caulfield in Melbourne. Hedley and Zara have been shomer mitzvos for years and regularly host for Chabad.

I recall when Dan was eight years old, he kept bothering his father to buy him tzitzis like Ezra and Michoel wore. Finally, one Sunday, Dan’s dad took him to a North Shore Judaica shop. Dan asked if they had tzitzis. The man said, “We actually do have some; in fact, I have a couple of pairs in your size. The man placed the tzitzis on the counter, and they were priced differently. Dan asked the man why they were they priced differently. The man said “I don’t know.”

Dan then whispered to his father, “I don’t want to buy tzitzis from a man who doesn’t know the difference. They left the store, and Dan’s dad drove him to the frum shop in Bondi, where the man knew the difference and even explained the mitzva!

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As Arleeta and I assess our train ride, we realize that we needed to be in certain places, at certain times, for specific reasons, and likely a Divine purpose. From our early days as NCSY leaders through our rabbinate in South Africa, we have been immensely grateful to have had the tremendous opportunities to meet so many wonderful and special people who became our extended family. We are so truly blessed and profoundly grateful to Hashem to still be riding on the train together and still awaiting, with Hashem’s blessing, for our next adventure.

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